tImE LeFt

im officially in the counting down phase of my ns life :D it's like barely 5 months plus to go before i lose my job.. j/k. before i return to a civilian life.. to me it isnt anything special since my job scope doesnt really involve me stretching my physical limits. (yes i'm pes a and i haven't attempted SOC before..) but i guess i'll miss thailand a lot when i leave in august. too many memories. easy to foresee my returnings in the future. :)

my mum's thinking in circles. kinda like a meaningless circular logic. she will go "oh i'm very confused" and when i ask over what she will say "dunno". and that will be repeated over and over in the long distance calls. so i dunno what to say to her. not like it matters, since she doesnt listen to what i (or anyone else for that matter) say anyway.. shes living in her own world now. the way she speaks is so different! doesn't even seem like the mother i knew a month ago. =.=

maybe its post operation blues? like those post natal depression mothers. i cant tell. but she's certainly not talking much sense nowadays. and she has unexplained hospital phobia. which makes things complicated.. she will scream and scream at any suggestion of going to see a psychiatrist.

which leads to a big question: WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?!

sInGz