some decisions

well there are times in everyone's life where one makes certain decisions that can possibly change the future or at the very least change how one lives the next phase of one's life (ok i realised tt its damn hard to speak in 3rd person continuously..)

so, right now, i'm at the end of my NS phase. plus minus the weekends, offs and holidays, about 40 working days left. that makes me kinda like at another crossroads, faced with the decision of what to do in the next 8 months.

several options are available. the most obvious one would be to work. with my current qualifications, that would mean either (a) becoming a tuition teacher getting paid 50 dollars per session; or (b) a 8-5 mon-fri routine at some firm paying me $7 an hour (averagely speaking). neither of which is particularly appealing to me because (a) i don't want (and see no point in) to cover past academic work again; and (b) i hate routines (it bores me to death)

then there's always the option to take a break (i hate wasting time!) and start travelling around, fulfilling promises to friends in other countries to visit them and shopping myself to death. this option doesn't look too bad at all since this is probably the only time in the next 10 or so years of my life where i will get such an opportunity! however, it's difficult to find friends who have the time and capital to travel with (and travelling alone is out of the question) so i suspect most of the time i'll just be lazing around at home watching prison break or desperate housewives.

thirdly, i could go for intensive courses. i can continue my japanese lessons full time, 3 hrs a day, mon-fri, from where i left off (before i went to thailand). then i could do french twice a week, learn thai writing on wednesday nights and maybe arabic on weekends(there's an article in the papers today on the surge of singaporeans learning arabic). that would be my dream subjects in university but too bad i chose a more practical SMU over a language degree. this option would probably tie down most of my time (and brainpower) although it's good to start the treadmill running again after 2 years of hardly-mentally-stimulating army (you just do it! hierarchy).

lastly, i could do nothing at all! ok, maybe not nothing at all, but take it easy and slow. for example, i could start clearing books of my "ah i've always wanted to read this title but don't have the time" list (the book is probably sitting on my shelf since i buy on impulse). same goes for movies. lots of movie rental companies and online sources where i can watch old films with minimal expenditure. occasionally i can go to the kinokuniya bookstore at taka and sit at the coffeehouse and sip iced frappachino. sometimes call friends out for a meal at pasta cafe or something. basically having no particular agenda on the mind when i wake up every morning and do things at my whim.

i'm kinda mixed on the decisions.. hopefully i'll wake up one day (before i ORD!) and have the answers to my questions. i believe that recent discussions with several friends as well as my heart will lead me down the next path at this juncture. i'm beginning to have some ideas myself too! but one thing is that i won't commit myself to any decision yet. it's (still) early :) i won't procrastinate but i don't worry myself unnecessarily before things happen.

^sInGz^