SUCCESS :)

lolx. can't believe it. i actually managed to stay in my hotel room the whole day! got so many DVDs to watch and i can't bring them back! so i figured that i'm just going to check into BCS on all my day offs and clear the remaining DVDs before i EOT..

my poor buddy can't come to bangkok on weekdays!! not until he passes his IPPT.. i've always thought SYC goes too hard on new perm staffs who have yet to clear their IPPT.. luckily i wasn't a victim of UFP. managed to go for my 16 day offs in december even when i just got posted in.

just found out that 7-11 here sells some nice pre cooked dishes! ate some rice with chinese black sauce with bbq chicken for dinner tonight. delicious. but won't be eating too much of these in the future cos i feel that instant dinners don't sound quite right.. haha..

one of my OETI instructor, mr "cannonball" lee has just passed away from a motorbike accident. strange that i was the one in my batch to find out first cos i'm furthest away from singapore. the sudden news shocked quite a few ppl. such things never fail to make me realise how transient life is.. things just happen out of the blue.

maj wee called to check on my mum today. from the looks of it she's much much better and i will stay on and complete my tour in thailand.. just a few days from completing 7 mths. strange how fast time passes here..

might be popping by kinokuniya tomorrow to browse books! running out of anime to watch :)

sInGz

rEfLeCtIoNs

its official.. i'll be in bangkok doing nothing for the next 3 days. yes you heard me. nothing. nought. zilch. zero. re. ling. konok. soon (thai for 0). really. nothing meaningful. just happily relaxing in my nice hotel and calling room service during meal times. (a good time to explore BCS menu yea?)

besides (ab)using the free high speed wireless internet service at BCS for torrent downloads and chit chatting with friends, i don't have much of an idea what to do with my time for this day off. got a bit sick shopping and chionging from the past 2 or 3 N3Ds i guess.. have been feeling very tired in camp. can't seem to sleep enough even though i sleep through all my lunch times..

realised that there seemed to be lesser and lesser people to go out with. this may be due to one or more of the following reasons..

(1) the ever decreasing population size of ppl who share my race in SYC;
(2) the recent obsession (and stricter enforcement) of training branch with UFP (*$^%&);
(3) the lack of new NSFs who remit 600 SGD a month ever since my buddy left;
(4) the change of camp culture whereby RIC is no longer viewed with distaste;
(5) A6's pro education campaigns working and the new perm staffs CPC sends up are more well behaved (i.e. 乖乖) with more desirable social lifestyles (i.e. won't frequent holl**ood);
(6) my time is almost up.

judging from the myriad of reasons above, i feel that (6) is the most likely of the cluster of choices. my time is almost up and i can feel it. today's 20th. it's a week from completing my 7th (out of 9) month in thailand. afterwhich i'll have 2 months left.. in many senses, i feel that i've accomplished a lot here. met some really good people, recee-ed a foreign land, picked up some new phrases in yet another language. if my mum's ok i wouldn't mind staying for another couple of months to experience more thailand..

looking back at the past half a year, i've definitely seen many things. some pleasant, some ugly. will bring the pleasant memories back and leave the bad ones behind. its so me to be constantly moving on. i guess acceptance has made my life a lot easier to live. (edit: acceptance does not equate to resignation). which generally means that i'm easy going and cheerful.

some campmate asked me about photosynthesis today. i tried to explain the dark and light reactions but stopped myself before i start sounding like an encyclopedia again =.= then in the afternoon another guy called to ask me about the combustibility of white phosphorous. suddenly made me miss my inorganic chemistry books! (perhaps i'll go to kinokuniya tomorrow to read) i guess books have always and will always be an integral part of my life. just can't live without them.

just noticed the incoherence of my paragraphs. possibly due to a long abstinence from writing (or its just cos its 3am here..) shall go sleep!

sInGz

tImE LeFt

im officially in the counting down phase of my ns life :D it's like barely 5 months plus to go before i lose my job.. j/k. before i return to a civilian life.. to me it isnt anything special since my job scope doesnt really involve me stretching my physical limits. (yes i'm pes a and i haven't attempted SOC before..) but i guess i'll miss thailand a lot when i leave in august. too many memories. easy to foresee my returnings in the future. :)

my mum's thinking in circles. kinda like a meaningless circular logic. she will go "oh i'm very confused" and when i ask over what she will say "dunno". and that will be repeated over and over in the long distance calls. so i dunno what to say to her. not like it matters, since she doesnt listen to what i (or anyone else for that matter) say anyway.. shes living in her own world now. the way she speaks is so different! doesn't even seem like the mother i knew a month ago. =.=

maybe its post operation blues? like those post natal depression mothers. i cant tell. but she's certainly not talking much sense nowadays. and she has unexplained hospital phobia. which makes things complicated.. she will scream and scream at any suggestion of going to see a psychiatrist.

which leads to a big question: WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?!

sInGz

my last night in singapore :)

heex. sometimes life can be so transient..

my mum's out of hospital! had her op and on the way to recovery! hope she cheers up though :)
going back to thailand tml afternoon. miss the camp guys a lot!

guess this marks the end of my second (non existant?) homeleave. didnt really have the time to do much.. but managed to find time to meet 3 groups of friends for a meal and go chiong comics at kino! (got 20% storewide for a mth leH!)

great singapore sale started! but strangely got no mood to shop at all.. see the pricetags xian le. didnt even pay attention to the clothes. cos great thailand sale 365 days a year woR.. no need to wait for june de. :) haha

guess i go crazy le.. =.= better go pack sooN! so late liao. tml got afternoon flight! haha.. *giggles hysterically*

sInGz

hOmE sWeEt hOmE

im back at home! feels so good to be using my own computer complete with personal internet (not that my camp laptop doesnt belong to me though..) for once.

my mum just finished her op this afternoon. hope she recovers soon. will be popping down to the IT fair and book fair at suntec tomorrow if everything's ok. so badly want to walk around singapore!

im yawning as i type.. shall go sleep :)

sInGz